i don't know what happened. she just....snapped.

so i think i hit some glass ceiling today emotionally. i just snapped this afternoon and started to cry. i haven't heard from western psych yet. my car is doing strange things again and will no doubt need to be fixed in some capacity. my mom suggested i move home which, though certain bills wouldn't have to be paid, i think is probably an awful idea. so many of my friends don't have to worry about jobs or money b/c it somehow works out between their parents, their boyfriends, or their boyfriends parents. i know it will all work out okay, the car will get fixed somehow, and i will hear back from western psych one way or another, and i will have a job that pays me money so i can stay here, and my cold will go away, and i'll find a place to live, and i'll somehow manage to swing some money to pay for my bills, and i won't always be the only single one around, and i won't always feel swept under the rug or put in a box for the effort i make towards my ministry. but for tonight, i think i can confidently say i've snapped. and tomorrow...

well i'll probably snap back.